It's not just that but it's everything else.

today is a truely lousy day. i was driving out for lunch when i got into an accident with this cyclist. my bonnet and roof got dented while my windscreen got smashed. amazingly, the cyclist's fine cept for a few cuts on his back. not going to argue who's fault. what i am really trying to get through here is that it just sums up what an unlucky man i am. never won anything in lucky draws, never lucky in slotting questions for exams, never lucky in relationships, always getting some freak accidents and now, this. i am really at a loss. just when everything's starting to look rosy, i got a battering. what did i do??
i tried my hardest to comply with parent's wishes by studying hard to get into jc, did i not? knowing that will make my parents happy despite the turbulent times then.
i tried to listen to people's problems and tried my hardest to find solutions. i tried to be what my crushes likes in a guy, i tried and i tried, to become someone that i am not. now, i really don't know who i am anymore. when exams ended, i am ready to be back to myself when this had to happen. a sign? probably.
why do things have to happen at the wrong times. father's not having a happy time in work and because of the car, he had to continue working for a while. everyone in the family is contributing to the car's expense while here i am, free riding. when the accident happened, the person who i think is in the wrong is really just me. who else to blame for the extra expenses, the repairs, the compensations?
father just called me. he did not scold me which made me feel worse than i already am. so, for the first time, in a long time, i cried while he was on the phone telling me everything's fine. knowing him as the sort of person who cares so much for new things, i do really wished that he had scolded me instead. sorry.

if everything can be so simple.