Aftermath.

Guess i wasn't really prepared for what's coming after everything. Had painted such a wonderful fairytale ending that i exactly forgot about reality, the harsh reality. Once bitten, twice shy. why haven't i learnt this age-old saying... well.. it's jus me, i guess. always thinking of the present but never of what comes after. not that it's worse this time round but i'm really starting to get tired of this cycle. maybe i should have taken it a tat slower.. at least things will not be so awkward so soon. even though it's been only 2 days after the surprise, i've started to miss her usual friendliness, the casual banter. wonder if i can ever reach her expectations.. should have realise where i stand.. sigh.. my low esteem is kicking in again. well, if i don't try, i'll never know whether i'll succeed. i don't want to regret like my 1st time. seldom have i come across someone with so much in common as i.. i'm not going to give up til i am told an affirmative no. think for now, i'll take it slow and start all over again! all the best to me! whoosh! =D