All i wanted.

i remembered when i was young, both of you quarrelled all so often because of financial problems. that's when i stopped believing in god. no matter how much i prayed, the quarrels continued ever so frequently. finally when both of you got stable and relatively easy jobs, i thought to myself, "great, it's over."
guess i never was a lucky guy. guess i should have seen it coming. how foolish i am, trying to think otherwise. back they came, for another reason, another problem. since it started all over again, i kept running from this reality trying so fruitlessly to find another reality, my fairytale ending.

all the while, i tried so hard to be what you wanted of me. to get good grades, to get into JC, to get into uni. yet, you've not given what i always wanted. free from mistrust, free from quarrels. when will this day ever gonna be.