news flash.

My new roomie came in last thursday, il s'appelle Semou. he's an exchange student from France. my chance to brush up my french. whee! had a drinking session with the guys last friday, enjoyed myself thoroughly. i'm not a drinking person but it feels good to be able not to give a damn about anything for a while. for the first time in weeks, i'm able to sleep like a log til a stoopid sms spoils everything.. bleah.. celebrated sze gay's birthday on saturday at seletar dam, had a small bbq and catch up a bit with the sec sch ppl... that's my weekend. oh, before that, went to ryan's new shop to show support. the place's well designed and cool. hope his shop will take off smoothly. time to log off. nite.

If I let you go.

Day after day time pass away
And i just cant get you off my mind
Nobody knows i hide it inside
I keep on searching but i can't find

The courage to show, to letting u know
I've never felt so much in love before
And once again i'm thinking about
Taking the easy way

But if i let u go i will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will i ever see you smiling back at me?
How will i know if i let you go?

Night after night i hear my self say
Why cant this fewling just fade away?
These no one like you
You speak to my heart
Its such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm to shy to ask, i'm to proud to lose
But sooner or later i've got to choose
And once again im thinking about
Taking the easy way out

Once again im thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if i let u go, i will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will i ever see you smiling back at me?
How will i know if i let you go?

But if i let you go i will never know
Will i ever see you smiling back at me?
How will i know if i let you go?

Smile.

Smile - an way to cover any other emotions that you are feeling. a sad story to be told. a mask. an irony.

Updates.

Nothing much to update actually. only that my parents bought a new car. a hyundai verna. well, it's not really a great car but it's still a car anyway. my parking's getting better that's all i can say =)

this sem, i feel that i am lagging terribly. need to pull up my socks. but my mind's been feeling so saturated. it's like refusing to adsorb any information at all. tsk. hate it. getting worried. don't want to let myself down.

Want to go to a beach and enjoy the view, breeze and sound of waves. or to find a big green field and lie in the middle of it and look at the clouds above! relaxation expectation!

Untitled.

Latest updates: got a single room next sem but i'm getting so tired of staying in hall, yet so hard to say goodbye. got my second gold of the year. softball. didn't get the sliver for soccer. a lil disappointed considering the efforts put in but considering that i didn't even get to be in the reserves, won't feel proud even if i get the medal. the rest of the news not that important, just that i didn't do as well in the quizzes as i hoped. projects deadlines are drawing near but my panic button seems faulty.

having a cheerleading performance at bishan park in 2 hrs time... no point sleeping. just found out gemini showed various obvious traits which are that 'they joke a lot and that they are very deep beneath the smile of theirs.' heh.. well.. it's not because that Geminies are born jokers, there's many reasons for them to joke. many. and for the second trait, i believe everyone has something beneath their smiles and laughter. i mean what's the point of letting other people worry for you by telling them about it? since it's my problem, i should be the only one who needs to worry right? there only need one unhappy soul in this world to keep the rest happy and not the other way round. so, smile and the whole world smiles with you.

had this wonderful dream before i woke up. wanted to carry on sleeping. wells, sweet dreams only last til you wake up. ironically, instead of feeling happy, i was feeling so sad, so down after waking up. as you know, dreams never come true. for me that is. how i wish that i can switch dreams to reality. i'm so tired but i don't wannna sleep. i want to dream no more for it brings more pain than bliss. fallen.