More than that.

Today's isn't my hall's day, lost all IHG competition today. table tennis, hockey, darts and rugby. i was so disappointed with myself. damn. true that this is my 1st foray into rugby but i was not impressed with what i had shown. freaking lost when i got sub in and i played a huge part helping the opposing hall to level the game. lucky our hall won it in extra time. during our crucial match in the loser's pool, din have a chance to make amends and had to watch my hall losing in the last minute. DAMN. seeing everyone dragging their bruised and aching selves on the way back, i had nothing to show for other than a bite from the only tackle i made in my brief appearance. felt that i could have given more. sigh.. now, have to wait til next year to prove myself. to prove myself i will.

School's starting soon..

Oh my gosh, time flies and i haven really enjoyed my hols at all.. =( had so much activities everyday.. bleah.. retribution for joining so many hall activities i guess.. well.. finally got some time for my blog.. heh..
where do i start.. hmmm.. okie.. i got my results, 2 A-, 1 B+, 3 B and 2 C+. i finally got my 1st As in uni! but i m still sore over the 2 Cs.. expecting only one.. but have to be contented for what i got i guess.. heh..
my timetable next sem is horrid! breaks galore! think i'll be a hardworking student next sem... with most of my breaks being spent in libraries.. and yesh.. i'll be alone in most of the lessons!! sobs*
celebrated yunjia's birthday yest, hope u liked the present! must give all the recognition to weiting!! it's she who did the shopping.. so ashamed of myself though for not contributing much.. goumei!! jon and weirong were there too.. had a great dimsum brunch.. thx for the treat, bdae gal! hee.. well, lotsa 'ifs' came flooding back.. heh..let's not talk about it. my grandma had a operation tt day so i couldn't be with u guys all the way.. hope u all understand.. and yep, she's getting better.. =)
for now though, i am craving to go shopping and to watch 'chronicles of narnia'.. ju ar.. ni zi dao wo zai deng ni ma~ hahaha.. when r we goin out?!

All i wanted.

i remembered when i was young, both of you quarrelled all so often because of financial problems. that's when i stopped believing in god. no matter how much i prayed, the quarrels continued ever so frequently. finally when both of you got stable and relatively easy jobs, i thought to myself, "great, it's over."
guess i never was a lucky guy. guess i should have seen it coming. how foolish i am, trying to think otherwise. back they came, for another reason, another problem. since it started all over again, i kept running from this reality trying so fruitlessly to find another reality, my fairytale ending.

all the while, i tried so hard to be what you wanted of me. to get good grades, to get into JC, to get into uni. yet, you've not given what i always wanted. free from mistrust, free from quarrels. when will this day ever gonna be.

Tired.

Just when i have mentally drained myself, now i am draining myself physically... well, considering that i've joined rugby, soccer, softball, hockey and unbelievably, cheerleading, i guess it's little or no wonder that my body's aching all over now...

With commitments in my part-time jobs, trainings and in NPCC, i was glad that i still managed to find time to go out with my friends. Hee... went for dinner with weiting and yunjia, glad to do a bit of catch up, even though time was short.. at least i saw the 1st item in my 'to buy' list! a pair of levis jeans.. muahahahaha.. Guess what.. someone graduated unoffically yesterday lor.. sigh.. i still have two and a half years left!!! sianzzz.. well, congrats ju! haha.. the working world awaits.. *evil laughter* hope u get ur stand chart post graduate thingy! enjoyed our lil date *wink* hahaha... let's try eating lesser next time yar.. dunno why we tend to eat til so full everytime we go out... hahaha... chicken little is nice but the animators drew the pig damn ugly la.. overall not a bad show.. hee..

okie.. it's time to get my very very much needed sleep... been mahjonging almost every night after the exams, having less than 5 hours of sleep daily... yawnz.. nitez ppl...