Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Bitch.

How can one be free when he is busy occupied in front of the computer?
Does one need to do manual labour so as to look busy?
People are BUSY cutting papers 'cause they got nothing else to do.
you are not the only one giving projects.
So many incompleted projects, yet you still say i'm free?
Think about it. oops, sorry, i forgot that you can't think.
You can only keep asking people to think,
giving the reason that you are in this system for too long.
I can't help but agree with the last point. old bitch.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Mother found out my stay in hospital.
Got a talking to.
Don't want her to worry in the first place.
Hope she understands.
Just feel like lying on my bed,
staring into space,
listening.

"If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?"

Friday, August 11, 2006

Headache.

Had the weirdest two days of my life. everything's so dreamlike. i can only remember i was playing soccer and the next thing i know, i was being carried by the guys. it's like those birthday celebration where you are going to be poled to a tree. Everything was in a daze. i was wondering why were the guys so anxious, why the ambulance had came, why was my head bleeding a little, why i was having such a headache. anyway, i was getting pissed that i'm going to miss out on so many stuff i had planned.. helping with block supper, block supper, splashing of freshies, weiting's birthday dinner, ikea trip, movie.. argh! how i hope i can just wake up now.
had a MRI scan on my head today which the doctor declared normal. Thanks for the visit, jiahao aka my financial planner. Don't know what to do without you man.. had mixed feelings when yunjia, weiting and weirong come a visiting. hee.. i know it's supposed to be your celebration.. i'm so sorry! well, at least i had my room warming with you gals.. not that bad right.. =P we'll go have dinner and find your present soon! i told my parents part of it only wor.. hahaha.. and they are already fussing over it.. can't tell them everything la..
Last but not least, thanks to all who have shown concern one way or another, really appreciated it and sorry to all those i promised to help, really felt bad about it, creating unnescessary stuff. bleah.

this can't be happening. let this be a dream. wake up.

Monday, August 07, 2006

Blur.

5th week of IA begins and the past 4 weeks have been such a whirling blur. IA's as busy as ever, if not, busier. no shit. just did my 1st OT today! wth!
FOC just ended and i didn't get to enjoy it as usual.. sigh.. programmer's job is not that fantastic and together with IA, it wasn't a memorable camp at all.. bleah.. well.. for me anyway.. for the rest, i guess it's one of the more succesful ones considering the manpower and financial problems. for many, it's definitely an experience, full of ups and downs. something to bring with them for years to come. =)

I'm starting to miss school.. everything seems so not fun anymore.. i wonder..

deja vu. bon nuit.