I am but a man against an army of thoughts.

Finished my 6th paper of the semester, thermodynamics. feeling pissed that my expectations for this semester is probably out of reach, probably be seeing Cs or even Ds this sem. fark. feeling disgusted why this sem's papers had been so damn hard. well, maybe it's just me. damn. had high hopes for this paper especially since i had a long time to study for it.
now that it's over, i can only tell myself that i had done what i could, that i've tried my best. apparently, best wasn't good enough. think my confidence had suffered a blow. long before exams anyway. gonna try to find a way to salvage it one way or another. i have really not been myself lately. unmotivated, lost and not knowing what i want anymore. salvation needed with a teaspoon of love and a pinch of joy. =)

on the brighter side of things, 1st of may is coming! can't wait for the angpao that the government is giving us! already had things in mind that i wanna buy:

1) sunglasses - $250
2) t-shirt frm ryan's store - $34
3) stuff to spruce up my single room - $116
4) saving up the rest!

Too much studies = Too much stress = funny Thoughts

What's one's true worth?
it's only realised when you are gone
What's the point of living
when you are truely appreciated when you are no longer around
What do you live for?
recognition? money? just the feeling of being alive?
To say live for happiness is a joke.
How many times in your life are you happy?
truely happy?
Have you ever wondered?
we are chasing after so many things in our life
that we do not know what's our real motive in life.

Exams.

Finished my first paper, Chinese Cinema yesterday, having my first core paper in about 7 hours' time. though it's just the start of the exams, i already feel tired of examinations. argh. One of the questions in my PE paper was on Plato's cave. the cave symbolising one's subconciousness, one's alternative. well, this is my cave, a place where i can crawl back and hide from the rain, to regain my strength to carry on. heh.